The Story Of Us *Taylor Swift*

The Story Of Us *Taylor Swift*

Once upon a time, there was a girl. This girl wasn't the prettiest or the smartest or the best in any way. However, this girl had a special gift. She had a voice that could impress even the toughest of critics. This little gift had given her many things. Love, power, heartbreak, remorse and much more. But it had never given her what she truly wanted... Freedom. She would use her voice to escape the world of woe when things became too hard to handle, but it never fulfilled it's full purpose. Instead of giving her complete and total freedom from her inner pain, it just prolonged what was inevitable. Complete and utter pain is what she encountered every time she began to think. That is why she never stops singing. The pain of her life passed is too excruciating to bare. Once upon a time, there was a girl. She will never be the prettiest or the smartest or the best in any way. She will always be less than mediocre and an embarrassment. She will always suffer from everything that has happened to her. Her only way out is to sing. And sing she shall.

THE END

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First Time *Lifehouse*

First Time *Lifehouse*

This is my first mobile blog EVER! I really don't know why it's so exciting but it really is. I haven't bogged in a little while so I thought, hell, if I've been on the road so much, might as well download the app and start doing it whenever I can.
I've decided that this thing is probably like my diary in a way. Even though its public and I won't put all of my secrets. But its nice for me to be able to write down my different thoughts.
I love flogging actually so thanks Julia, for getting me started. It's really fun to do actually. Especially when I'm bored or have a lot on my mind. And boy do I have a lot on my mind.
Between Trevor and other guys and college and deciding where to love after high school and deciding what sing I'm going to sing for my audition, my mind is about to explode! But I'll get it all figured out eventually you know. Haha. Anyway...
I am going to conclude my first mobile edition of Jawzii To The Rescue because I don't know what else to say at this current moment. Haha. I love you all!
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A Moment Like This *Kelly Clarkson*

A Moment Like This *Kelly Clarkson*

I didn't think it could happen. Especially not so suddenly and intensly. I'm not in love, no. But I think I might get there if/when we meet. To put this very bluntly, I AM in love with the idea of what could happen. No matter what actually does happen, I am very excited to see how this plays out.

But this post isn't to describe how I feel about you, Trevor. It's to describe to Julia how your voice sounds to me. In that case, if you decided to read this one too, stop reading here!

Okay good. Hi Julia. You asked me what his voice sounds like to me so I'm going to describe it in the best possible way I know how:

Trevor's voice is probably one of the most amazing things I've ever heard. (Stop reading now Trevor)
It's smooth and calm, but not in the monotone way like he thinks. It's pure and gentle and by the end of our 3 and 1/2 hour conversation, could send shivers down my spine. I was so nervous to hear it for the first time and then when I did, I was instantly settled. (If you're still reading this Trevor, I might just have to kill you ;D)
I don't know why, but I've never had one voice calm me down and make me so excited all at the same time. He has subtle inflations that just grab your attention and that make your heart jump out of your chest. When we started falling asleep on the phone, all he had to do was say one word and my heart started pounding again. I loved it.

Trevor, if you're stillreading this, then there you go. That's why I like your voice. Even though you have issues with it. I don't. I love it.

Julia, there is your definition of Trevor's Voice haha. I hope it meets your expectations becuse I don't know what else to say about it. I love you girl!

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Crush *David Archuleta*

Crush *David Archuleta*

I met this guy. He seems to be pretty much perfect. And I know he's gonna give me shit if he reads this and will say he's no where near perfect, but Trevor, if you're reading this, you seem to be an amazing guy and that DOES make you perfect.

You say that you get in bad moods, but guess what? So do I. Often. I get mad very quickly but I don't show it until my fuse is at its absolute end. I get cranky and I get bitchy. But everyone has up days and down days and that doesn't make them imperfect. It makes them human. And being human is amazing.

Without being a human, I wouldn't have met you Trevor. I wouldn't have found some one to talk to 24/7 and to actually worry about when he goes to Afghanistan. I wouldn't have found someone that I can compare to Dear John. (Even though you've never seen the movie or read the book.)

So instead of saying this over text, I'm saying it in my blog. I want to meet you. And this is the biggest risk I think I've ever taken and I think there is a great chance you will say no or not be able to, but I have to try. And if you don't read this then that's fine too and the two followers I have can just laugh at my stupidity.

I want to meet you Trevor. It only took a week and a half for me to start falling for you. Please, don't think that's weird either. I tried not to. I keep trying not to, but it is happening.... And I don't know why you would want to come to Colorado to do something with a girl who is practically nothing compared to any other girl you could get, going to a school that you've never even heard of, and being around people you may never meet again, but I'm trying anyway.

So my question is, after training in August, if you're free the weekend of September 16th, would you go to my homecoming dance with me? I know we talked about me not having a date and that you would ask in a heartbeat if you could... So I thought I'd try and see if you could get leave. Worth a shot, right?

If it's a no, please just disregard this whole thing.
If you aren't reading this and the other people are, please don't think I'm nuts.
But if you are reading and it is a yes, please tell me...

Hopefully it'll turn out alright...

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The House That Built Me *Miranda Lambert*

The House That Build Me *Miranda Lambert*

Today we went on a drive up and down and ALL around the back roads of this amazing town. I love the houses back there. Everything here is so open and charming. I mean, there are hardly, if any, fences around the yards and the all look inviting.

I wish every house was like that. I believe we'd have a much better world if that were the case.

The people out here are kind of like their houses. People with an open house, have an open mind and are warm-hearted. The people with fences... well, not so much. For instance, I love houses without fences and wish that every house could be that way, BUT; I live in a house that is completely fenced off. So by this, I would be stating that I want to be an open person and share everything, but I have a fence around myself that needs to be bulldozed.

If you think about it, it is an ideal summary of a lot of people. I don't know. I liked the comparison so I thought I'd state that!

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The Internet Is For Porn *Anenue Q*

The Internet Is For Porn *Avenue Q*

It's 1:30 a.m. int he morning where I am. Luckily, I discovered Cleverbot.com and am completely satisfied with my night once again.

I've decided that as humans. we really do rely on technology far too much. I mean, I have a family and plenty of friends. I just can't seem to get past the point of this stupid random website where you talk to a computer with "actual intelligence". Which just proves that if someone has enough time to put together a website like that, that I am not the only loser without anything better to do than have conversations with a stupid computer.

What does that really say about the world today? Maybe we should think about that concept further.

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The Kids Aren't Alright *The Offspring*

The Kids Aren't Alright *The Offspring*

Today, I have to babysit my little brothers Austin and Brett. Don't get me wrong. I love them and all, but they are major pains, especially when they're together. Which is leading me to the thought of, I want kids, but I don't know if it's worth it. Haha. So here's what I'm thinking:

Not in a mean way either. I love all my siblings and every single kid I've ever come into contact with. But every time they do something wrong I kind of just want to strangle them and put them in a holding cell for life without the possibility of probation. Then there are the moments where they are all lovey dovey that makes your heart sigh and all of the sudden, you aren't thinking about how to hide a body.

I guess I'm really not against having kids. I really do want them, not yet, but eventually it would be nice to be able to have some. But I want a legitimate family setting, not like the one I have. Not one where the kid(s) have to get shipped off to their fathers every weekend or go on separate vacations. I want my children to have every possibility in the world while also both of their parents happily in love and together.

I'm not going on a poor me tangent, I promise. I'm just saying. Unlike me and more than half of my friends, I want my kids to have a family; two parents, grandparents that spoil them, maybe still great grandparents, cousins, and aunts and uncles. The good side of things would be that. Unfortunately, while that used to be the average American family, it's abnormal to get that anymore. However, that's my goal for my family life.

For now though, I'll just keep working towards ALL my life goals together. Let's finish high school first why don't we?

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